March 4, 2009
To: My Dearest Cuzzy...After reading ur latest entry, i felt the urge to write this to u....i noe how it feels like when a brother did that to a sister......coz sometimes i do feel the same thing too....They are actually worried abt us but they dont noe how to show their love tts why the scold us, shout at us, make us like their maids....and etc....am i exaggerating?hehe oopssBut sometimes rite i really donnoe whether he even cared for me...bcoz of some incidents....nvm abt it coz uhhhhhhh my eyes r watery..........uhhhhrrgghh....Brothers r like that!!!Egoistic!!!!I noe u'v been missing ur dad, ....i miss him too ...i miss listening to his stories miss being with him cracking jokes and more...but what can i do? what can we do...i can only afford to cry and pray for him....Mudah-mudahan rohNya bersama orang-orang soleh.......so after every prayer u doa and sedekahkan fatiha ke atas rohnye ok.......i noe its hard for u to ....I noe im not a gd sis to u....but deep inside my heart u and nurul will always be my blood sisters and not cousins...except for feewa coz shes is my sister! hehehok.... I have to change and i need to change im becoming older every minute.....i have to be more mature and stuff....Look im the eldest among u gurls i have to show the right example but i noe u guyz are going into these teenage state in ur life so many challenges will be faced.....juz remember that didi is there for u...plz plz do talk to me when u feel down or in need.....i noe im not sporty or hyper or loud as u guyz r but that doesnt mean i dont care abt u.......i wanna have a clean heart...n u guyz want it too rite....U noe why im feeling this way coz i feel that i am have to be responsible to u guyz.I noe at this point of time u need the most love from the ppl surrounding u....but juz to let u noe...everybody in this world ade dugaan dlm hidup masing2....So we all have to overcome each hurdles in life......we all have to face this and overcome itin a rite way....Allah is always with us...ps: Dd Nadia im sooo wanting to go out with u!..... Nisha...i love u too!!....if ure reading this....
(Im Waiting for U...) 9:47:00 PM
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